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and it's you,

2012-01-31T01:26:00.001+08:00

It is but an amazing feeling to discover that after much toil, what you want in the end is still what you wanted at the beginning.

F

happie CNY '12

2012-01-26T02:29:00.000+08:00

but I know no better,

2012-01-22T02:26:00.001+08:00

The echo in the head is deafening; it's not supposed to be like that, it's not..

I'm done being an office girl,

2012-01-19T01:30:00.000+08:00

This week marks the end of my 4weeks rotation at Stor Perubatan, and I conclude that I'm just NOT into documentation, facing a computer screen from 8-5, photocopy/fax/printer, and moreeee documentation. I used to be envious seeing how the OL's could dress up and strut in that heels to work just sitting by the desk most of the time being..posh and pretty, but now I finally realised I'm not made for that, I guess I'm bound to just flitting around in hosp in my unkempt, comfy flats being..short and hideous in fashion sense :/ Oh well, it's my job =3

Andddd then, here comes the nightmare. Clinical starts on the first day of CNY, say yeahh? I'm gonna be hovering around the ward in my to-grow tummy, soon. Hah! Oh joy. :/

F

-

2012-01-10T01:33:00.000+08:00

define... (?)

2012-01-07T02:01:00.005+08:00

Throw a question to most on what they want to make out of this life- the answer is simple, happiness. But why then, does it seem so difficult to procure something so simple? Why is there always a thousand reasons to bring us down and to make us frown? Is it the expectation on what happiness should really feel that is hindering us from ever getting there?

Maybe, maybe, until you realise it has all along been here, not in the hopes or dreams but in the known, the familiar, the comfortable- it takes only one reason to smile, and that's true happiness.

F

4.5 hours was all that I had from you,

2011-12-19T05:26:00.005+08:00

..but it's enough to bring warmth to my rainy days, till the next weekend when we meet again.

p/s: I ♥ you.

F

After a week of night shift and more to come this weekend,

2011-12-17T15:34:00.004+08:00

Dead batteries are as such. :/

F

pout

2011-12-03T00:33:00.004+08:00

when I was still healthy and happie and dandy..

I'm blogging cause' I haven't blogged for the longest time (at least I thought so..) and I'm on a night shift. (Has it been 1+1/2 hours already? Wowwww 8am seems so..not far away..T-T)And I'm sick! *coughhhhhhkkuhukkuhukkk* Damn it. There's always a saying at home that albeit the bro and I can have access to allllll sorta medications, whenever someone's falling sick we'd still needa seek for a dr's magical touch to heal. =.= Why like that? How is the antibiotic I take different from dr's? pffft.

Sidenote: Cuzzie's wedding tomorrow! S'pore cuz coming back yayyy. It's one of those gatherings I always look forward to. Hopefully I won't look too.. sick.. that is. =.= *pray for speedy recovery*

Falalalala, lalalala!

2011-11-24T23:19:00.003+08:00

santarina says hi!

..and the joyous mood has began to surge thou it's still a month away!

Reminds me of the rather ~~tormenting~~ memorable time I had last x'mas during hosp. attachment at jb, I wished I could be at kl just to visit malls for their heart-warming decorations (fav thing to do!) and deffos to shopppp for pressies for them loved ones. :3 This year around sadly I still couldn't be there >={ but oh well, I should probably sneak back every weekend already (or even better, take off-days since I have plenty of em :p)

That aside, let's not forget the true meaning of x'mas and the reason we celebrate it, aye? =3

p/s: Dear Santa, I've been a good good girl, and I'm hanging my x'mas stocking already!:p

F

we've got growin' up to do,

2011-11-22T13:00:00.000+08:00

It does feel like a lot has changed from the last time I know it. Has it been for the better or the worse?

The girl I see in the mirror; tousled hair, pallid semblance, ghastly overall, and the missing smiles that comes right from the heart- I remember asking her, "why but you're so hard to yourself, young lady."

And I guess this is what they say about growing up, it's almost always a painful road to walk on, when idealistic often gives way to realistic in many aspects of life. I learnt that you just ought to stop collecting the pebbles along the way and let go of the past when you really have to.

Sometimes, many times, I don't remember the dreams that I used to guard for, anymore.

F

i'll never be too far away,

2011-11-16T01:53:00.004+08:00

Life's. currently under construction.

11.11.11 0101hr

2011-11-11T01:01:00.001+08:00

And you're sleeping next to me.
Wondering what'd you dream at?

p/s: It didn't occur to me I've longed to be in your arms this much, not until the moment you hugged me so tight, again. 

F

-

2011-11-08T02:52:00.002+08:00

F, missing J.

Baby boy, call me guu-guu okie?^^

2011-11-06T02:35:00.004+08:00

Thank God! 

I can't express how happie I am to welcome the little prince, Ean to our family! Weighs a 3.6kg and 51cm in length, it must have taken a toll to his Mommie during labour considering how thin she is. :D Thanks to the gruelling weekend on-call, I couldn't be there to spend the precious moments with my family huhuu :( I can't wait to meet him already! Can't wait to sniff-sniff the distinct baby scent heehee. :D

Eee shame shame. :P

Baby yao jian jian kang kang kuai kuai zhang da o! 

if something upsets you,

2011-11-04T00:02:00.003+08:00

smile it off; come tomorrow it's just another story of the past. :)

F

now to the rear,

2011-11-01T22:48:00.004+08:00

"Time flies," we always say it aloud. It's almost vexatious not to know the statement any lesser because there's really nothing we can do to the ticking clock as much as we realise how fast time travels. It's November already! x10

I remember drawing this last year,

Hehehe. I'd probably just re-post it every November since I don't think I can draw any better already huuhu.

And it's been some 12 weeks since I started working! x10000 Oh well, the 'thing' people say about working life is finally kicking in- the mundanities that make you dreaddd waking up every morning to go to work. I guess the excitement's been diminishing in a steady rate now reaching to some kinda plateau that makes me go, meehhh  about work, and it's faster than I thought it'd be! I love what I'm doing, but I'm just a little tired. All I'm looking forward for is a getaway that's... unfortunately not gonna happen anytime soon, yet. *pout*

Anyway, I'm currently in TDM and it's nothing really like the TDM that I provisioned it to be because half the time I'm still helping out in the outpatient pharmacy. >={ Most of the blood samples are sent out to JB hospital for analysis and what I do is just the calculation part. *tap, tap and keep tapping the calculator..* But if I'm lucky enough to encounter cases like paracetamol overdose (yes, suicidal case!) I can actually run the test! That's one of the two drugs that can be analyzed in my hospital, besides carbamazepine. Sigh what a pity on the so much things that I don't get a hands-on for. :( I still have so much to learn.

Works aside, the Lammies Clan are welcoming our new member to the family real soon! Can't wait for the anggguuguu  to bring some noise back in home already! Wheeeee! Pray to God that He will send angels to watch over the sisinlaw and the delivery of the new baby. :)

But new month marks even lesser time than it already has to spend with the boyfie. Are 5 days in a week any insufficient for work already people go for another 0.5 on Saturday? Dislike. Uhukkuhuuk 

Okay I should be studying for the forensic exam, or sweeter idea to go to bed instead zzz. Till then!

F

old dress,

2011-10-31T01:07:00.002+08:00

but still -ing the blue satin, dolled-up for a wedding dinner earlier evening. =3

Oopsie, why am I so into blogging these days? 

F

I've been gone for long,

2011-10-29T15:21:00.002+08:00

My heart's pounding hard, every beat is racing against my deep, careful breaths. My hand's shaky, it appears to me the world behind my eyes is a little dimmed, and it's gyrating around an axis where I am in the center. I had wanted to repel the gravity a little further but the road ahead seems to be twirling like a hurricane, I can't even walk in a proper gait. I'm comfortable just sitting down on dad's old cushioned chair, continue gazing at the lines and lines of words on the book that fail to cross the higher processing part of my brain. I'm running down on sugar for foregoing meals since lunch yesterday, and I know it. In these instances when the body's shunting all that unnecessaries to focus real up-close on the vital organs, I feel.. light, just listening to my own heartbeats and nothing else. I close my eyes and I see a brighter, lit path ahead, grains of hopes just dissipated all over me, it's like making sure to keep breathing is all that I ever have to think of for now; no sadness, no disappointment, no contradiction, no superfluous thoughts, no nothing. And beneath all that I find myself, again, now scraped off from the veil to appear strong all along. I'm caught in dismay by just how much I've kept in within, the good and the bad, the forceful extraction of some good from the bad, these useless specks of information in my hand I don't quite know what to do with. I realize the many things an unpleasant event in life can bring- the perpetual effect of the fears, the paranoia can be real.. terrifying and unbeknownst pushing me to the edge of giving up.

It's been awhile since I've come to term with.. myself.

F

like I'm made of glass; like I'm made of paper,

2011-10-29T01:12:00.003+08:00

reading the bedtime stories,

2011-10-28T00:31:00.004+08:00

..can be such a pain in the ass. but exam coming in two weeks time! :((((

p/s: spot my kiutttt hellokitty pen, meowww! :P

F

because we all have that favorite angle for pictures,

2011-10-26T23:46:00.009+08:00

.. it's then sent to the boyfie, set as profile picture/wallpaper/wherever-possible, blogged as a meaningless post like this..
lalalalaalla..

F

miles and miles to go,

2011-10-25T01:56:00.004+08:00

I somehow managed to capture the cluster of clouds that shaped like a heart, not realising it until later.

A little smeared, but isn't that what love is about? -to seek perfections in within all imperfections; love needs no bound embellishment yet it's beautiful like that. The distance, uninviting fights sometimes dishearten and incline us towards the other side, opposite from where love grows. But you never fails to bring it back, and I'm smitten by your mere presence.

To our 8 months, and more to come. ♥

-

2011-10-22T01:35:00.002+08:00

across,

2011-10-19T00:18:00.001+08:00

Sometimes you've only wished to be on the other side to know just what to say to make things better, to make them feel that you feel for them.

But it's never easy.

#4

2011-10-17T04:50:00.001+08:00

I love a Saturday night watching football with you comfortably in our living room, and I love how you fall asleep so adorably on my lap like

Thankiuuus baby for making every weekend worth looking forward to. I'm a happie girlfie. Heeee.

imma..

2011-10-14T01:46:00.000+08:00

..for real, though at times I don't seem like one.

happy 23rd,

2011-10-12T02:20:00.000+08:00

To my ♥loverboy,

Happie Merrie Berrie Birthdaaay!!

I wished I didn't have to be 300kilometers away from you so that I could make one of your many birthday wishes come true! -which is to be by your side right now nyehehee.

Pray for your good health and smooth-sailing years ahead, an amazing person like you deserve great blessings in life. :*

I love you.

last week in a nutshell

2011-10-11T00:42:00.001+08:00

.drug committee meeting- talk about being in a room discussing on hundreds of thousands of $$$ of drugs with the specialists, my boss, my big boss, and my biggest boss (ze pengarah), I found it suffocatingly interesting! .working midnight shift 11-8am- forcing myself to stay awake after 12 has nevahh been this torturing. :(( I think that's what aging does to me uhukuhuk. And yahh, hospital is always creepy like that I felt the chill wherever I went O_O .called up to deliver a talk to the diabetic patients at the 11th hour- embarrassing much! like seriously, I needa find ways to stop myself from stuttering while speaking in Malay sigh. How on earth did I manage to ace those syarahan competition when I was much, much younger?=/ Aging does that to me too?! .kursus orientasi for the newbies- ended up whatsapping the boyfie for the whole morning nyeheh :P .melancholic mood with the decease of Steve Jobs- inspiring stories as such always seem to pass across only when one is gone, forever. :( the world thank you for the intrusive technology you've brought to us, may you rest in peace .overzealous on the news of reducing mandatory service of phamacists to 1+1years- pleasssseeee don't take effect on moi batch! :(( splendid weekend with the boyfie and his family- hugs&kisses, and more hugs&kisses.. nuff said we're cheesy like that =}

This week is about working 2-11pm weekdays (yayyyzers for less tiring :p) and.. weekends 12-8am ouu-emm-gee (niooooo!! T-T)

But hey, I really love my job! ;) Though I'd be very much glad to offer what I can and help those in needs, I pray for everyone to be well, be healthy, be merry!

by my side ♥

2011-10-07T22:33:00.003+08:00

Hopelessly romantic, this is the kind of beautiful song that I'll never get bored listening to for a thousand times! And this is such awesome video, no? =3So who is that you're thinking of as the song touches you and unveils your inner emotions/affections?
We've all learnt about it; life's too short not to show love and be loved. :)

p/s: Whose heart is it that I have an access to with the key that you have given me?:P

I'm always waking up on the wrong side of the bed,

2011-10-05T22:31:00.001+08:00

..because you're not around to hug me to sleep.

Hello, October! :)

2011-10-03T00:36:00.001+08:00

A new month already, how fast!
I reaally reaaaalie needa start doing things as planned. *slap self*

Oh yyayyy x'mas is near. =}

They say, what goes around comes back around..

2011-09-30T21:38:00.001+08:00

Notes to self

You walk around with a nicely pressed white coat, fresh and vibrant, to minor still being recognised as 'one of the prps' instead of your name (oh well, but you have such inviting tease-able name), and yea, facing the same ~~inequalities~~ fate just as other prps, just because.. you're a prp! Initially you have to be hollered at for filling the medication a tad slooower just because you were puzzled by their apparent unsystematic arrangement, you ought to race with the time while dispensing because if you counsel more than makanberapabijisetiapkali berapakalisetiaphari like how you had learnt in institution, you'd end up slooooow, piling up Rx, troubling others to help you to push, and seeing unhappy faces >:((. Then you're sometimes expected to be an office girl doing some photocopy work, bearing with the stupid photocopy machine that throws tantrum, because somehow DIS here means like that. Even when you're down with serious cough and cold, you should know better to give way to others to take time-off on a fine Friday afternoon, I mean who's gonna work if you take a sicky? And you know, spend more time counting and tallying each and every tab of DD even if it's hardly the case, because sometimes without a trace they take without recording but why do you even bother? But good for you that there're still really good, respectable people around, and you can count on the other 4 cute lunch-mates who share the same fate as you, yes? Start pumping up your clinical knowledge already! And stop moving all the medscape newsletters to junk mail please. Good luck and get well soon aye! Hugsie*

but if I tell the world I'll never say enough, cos it's not said to you..

2011-09-23T00:48:00.001+08:00

A night like this becomes strangely familiar, like an uninvited foe I've never thought I'd have to live with. And times like this I feel my thoughts, now in a hodgepodge of nothingness, could only speak louder in written words during the process as I sort them out. Yet ironically enough, moments like this from the aftermath of fighting with him, I become an unwilling, reluctant listener even to myself- why does it always have to be so painful to learn? I hear my stomach twisting in a whimsical way; not sure if it's the acid for forgoing dinner, or the wince whenever it strikes me of how I almost lost him, and us, again..

In life sometimes you just know the right answer when it appears, at the very last fragment of minutes when you have stopped searching, when you have least expected it to burst the bubble you stay afloat in being comfortable with the warmth and certainties alone, when it actually lasts, seamlessly through these 7 years when we each pursued what was meant to make us who we are today. And then it's never the same again, when I could be rest assured that I'll be safe whenever I'm held in his arms, when there's always room for forgiveness, when I could be myself for who I'm supposed to be, even if there's abashed moments of awkward silence between us.

I was complete again, not until I had to give way to the so-called social responsibilities and other bigger things in life. I trip, fall and cry aloud a couple of times, like a child I'm merely yearning for him to hold my hand back up again. Little did I know, standing up stronger and going back right on track where I left off, is the way to grow at the same pace as he is, just so no one surpasses the other and that everything will remain as it is even we have to move alongside of each other, for now.

But baby if you must know, enough was when I found you, but how would I ever get enough of you?

embrace curve,

2011-09-21T22:45:00.002+08:00

.. and screw you scrawny pricks. =P

You'd have to agree after you see what these drop-dead gorgeous Hervé Léger dresses by BCBGMAXAZRIA can do to accentuate curves! I love how the vibrant colours coupled with simple designs that can deffo make the girl stands out to steal the limelight. :D One day, just one day.. I'd own one of these pieces in my closet hmpf. (If I can squeeze in one without revealing tummy bulge that is. =p)

*photos stolen everywhere in google image*

I know right, Blake Lively wore it best! ♥_♥

I LIKEY THIS! *gawked*

SIDENOTE: And so the other day I got myself bandage skirt, not one not two, but three pieces muahaha. Talk about pampering -self after some hard arse work, I'm gonna be receiving my first pay tomorrow! WeeEeE! That comes after 22 years of life, I'm so darn proud of myself. *pat pat* Shooppppp more, Fion, you're most well-deserved.

Toodles!

remember what we did last fall?

2011-09-17T14:49:00.006+08:00

Isn't it great that moments in life can be relished for again and again with these photographs? :) Can it be only me missing the hardcore extended-hours practice, the bruises, the tension arose from competition, the team spirit, the laughter, and deffos.. the cute friends?

Apparently so, apparently so..

Because it's ze time of the year again! And they must be practicing hard! If only I have yet to graduate.. if only.. :(

..and this especially, is for the hawtest guy in IMU (yessss..) sitting in the front row, captured for his cute gesture. :P

ADORABLEEEE, weren't we? ♥

Heeee. I can't remember why did we laugh thaaat hard, but it was one helluva memorable night, at least for me! :D Wished I could go back to IMU to watch the competition this year! :{

come home,

2011-09-16T01:30:00.000+08:00

Tonight it's one of those nights that I wished I was on the other side, for many reasons that slit me off from the there's no where better than this that I should be at-contentment that I've been living with since the first day of work. In these instances I realise how deafening the silence is, how barren my days have been working with more than just that in hospital, how much I've bottled up though I have to talk so much in preceding hours, how unachievable it is for a much taken for granted chance to come home for a simple meal with you, sharing each other's day and probably complaining about bitches at work, how painfully and sharply difficult it is knowing the same thing will happen tomorrow, and the day after that, and the day after that. Tonight it's one of those when I focus real up-close to myself, from the careful breaths that I take to brimming up my mind so I could distract as much uninviting senses as possible, to whisk specks of uncertainties off me. It's a tiring process and times like this I wonder which of it is more difficult; being in love or not being in love at all? or neither of it when there's not a choice given? or both of it cause the opposing voices continue blaring the mind when it is taken off guard?

Tonight it's one of those I wished you'd knocked on my door, and hold me tight like you'd never before. I had wished.

a limit to being plain.. grateful?

2011-09-13T00:26:00.001+08:00

It is on rare occasion like this that I find how/what to be grateful of a matter vexation, almost too difficult for me to figure out. How'd it happened? :'(

transformed!

2011-09-11T03:06:00.000+08:00

Hurrroowww! I'm back from hiatus! And see what major transformation I've done to my blog! Impressive much? ;D

That took me one whole Saturday night. Oh I heard you, yeaaa I had nothin' better to do cause nobody asked me out. :/

Anywayyy, me likey my new blog- vintage, lomo, hopelessly-vain-header up there, wider posting space for even bigger photos than I used to have, and basically.. the overall that defines me better than the previous template! Hehe. More motivated to blog more now. :P

Till then! Happie weekends y'all!

-

2011-09-08T23:01:00.001+08:00

Crying just doesn't heal anymore, cause broken, I really am.

we'll go chasing after the sun,

2011-08-30T00:04:00.000+08:00

Selamat hari raya to all the Muslim friends! :D

I believe this time around balik kampung would mean so muchhh to many of them who got posted to other states, yes? I've been blessed to be back working in my kampung, but this hol means something else to me!
In hours I'll be off for a mini getaway with the boyfie and the ~~in-laws~~ family.. Gonna get baked under the sun yo! *psyched* Heeee.

Happy holidays peeps! =3

rock the Lammies way,

2011-08-28T17:24:00.001+08:00

I tell you what I find cute about my lilsis-bigbrotherhood..

Like this. Hehehe. Happie birthday!!!!!!!
Huat more and buy pressies for me!!!!!! :P ♥

EeeeeeeeE angryyyY!

2011-08-27T00:29:00.001+08:00

Blarblarblarrr actually I just wanna rant about how I can't standddd the road users here in bp! Especially the sluggish motorcyclists who ride like they own the damn road, or that chao ah beng today, one hand with a cigarette hanging by the winded-down-window the other on the steering, cut to the 2nd lane directly when coming out from a junction FAAAAST and almost banged into my car! Like [insert any curse of any language] right? Burrrrr.. And I thought living in a town like this should make me more patieeeeennt, but I'm so turning the otherwise! >=[[

Okayy I'm done, but I don't feel any better, because tomorrow when I drive they'll still be everywhere.

Blame hormones. *nibble fingers*

because there's this day when we celebrate us,

2011-08-25T01:40:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I'd be in the wake of realising the humble truth that in the pursuit of what is deemed achievements through this machinery of life, things may wash off us like how the sea water does to the sand. And LDR could be a catalyst, a brutal one that is.

But for all I know, I treasure even the simplest thing like how my hand feels whenever it's held and fit in perfectly by yours.

Happie 6months, and counting. ILY!

7.45-5.00

2011-08-22T23:21:00.001+08:00

Day 4 thoughts: The best thing about working in a hospital as a prp- a good, uninterrupted deep sleep everyday is deffo a bliss, I zonk out within minutes and hardly dream at night! x_X My energy expenses is pretty much DONE after 5 like how battery bar turns red. :(( Why so lousy one?

To think of how much minor in scale in terms of workload here in HBP compared to HSA, JB where I had my attachment for 8 weeks, reckon I'd be quite a dead fish by now if I were to be posted there. The fact that Felicia hardly replies me text has proven that I suppose. :P Haha. But I realllllie need to do something to keep myself awake, seriously!

Before I started working I had even planned to.. take up my grade 8 piano exam/ part-time for more munneh (lol)/ go jogging after work/ attend yoga class (lololol)/ pick up new languages/ cooking skills (LOLOLOL)....

BUT all I've been doing so far is to hide under the blankey and sleep! I don't even bother to read on things I've long forgotten after my degree exam some 4months ago. Ohnooo. :(( Tell me it's just a matter of time to adapt and soon I'll be more productive than this, yar?:/

So I'm currently at OPD and in many ways I still feel like a student- still taking longer time to find the location of the medications (but getting the hang of it), making small mistakes in labelling once in awhile, stuttering away in Malay while dispensing, and probably.. talking too much when calling the doctor to clarify prescription. Lol. But what makes me feel like a practising pharmacist than a student is that.. my white coat is finally in short sleeves with nicer waistline (LOL), I have my own chop with name and designation (nyehehe), I can run in and out to get psychotropic drugs, and bancuh syrup to dispense! Everyday is a great learning experience and I love how I'm filled with job satisfaction at the end of the day. =3

Sidenote: There's psychiatric clinic today and I was surprised by how many prescriptions I filled with psychotropics, olanzapine, risperidone..and the likes. O.O BP people very stressful kar?

Okay zzz I can't zz typez morez gotta sleepz now! Laterz! :O

i thought i asked for the clock to stop ticking,

2011-08-21T15:49:00.001+08:00

The cold morning breeze woke me up this morning, I turned to you, and you hid me in your arms, beneath the snug little blanket you had your lips pressed against mine, I had my hand on your cheek and watched you sleep away again- a dream can't possibly be this real, I caught myself smiling alone.

And when I leave, in dream is where the closest I could get to you. I would hold on to the figment of imagination, till we meet again.

In the dark, in the rain we'd lay,
In your arms I'd stay.

Iloveyou J.

prayers answered

2011-08-17T01:23:00.001+08:00

I can't be anymore grateful now because things seem to fall into place like the way I wanted to. It's kinda hard to believe that I'm really getting into serious business now to be working as a pharmacist in hospital! Thank God for everything, really. :)

And the boyfie is gonna start working tomorrow too! Coincident much? I'd rather take it as another reason for me to be more thankful. :) Isn't it great that God arrange it this way so we're both on par to work towards our dreams at the same pace? The long distance (google map says 233.3km..) is undeniably a menace to a blooming relationship, but it makes every bit of it much dear to me, and even a simple phone call he'd promised during lunch break becomes so much worth looking forward to. =]] Right now we'd pretty much work our arse off and save $$$$$, so much so to be rich enough to buy an LV bag just to plant some flowers in it. *ka-chingg!* Yes, he said so! :P

That's all for now, it's time to hit the sack! Can't be late for my official first day of work yeah?

All the best to all b107-ians!

when candles were little and presents were huge,

2011-08-04T04:23:00.000+08:00

So these are some of my favourite photos that I captured during her birthday! Somebody give me the awesome-st gugu award in the world, please? Ngengenge..

What's birthday without mee sua neng?

Time for the pressies!!!!!

I'm blessed to be here, to watch her growing up. In many ways the little bundle of joy has brought us a lot of smiles and laughter, and her wits even at 2 years of age has never ceases to amaze me. Without having to understand her baby language that she jabbers about most of the time, she never fails to cheer me up just like that. :)Sometimes I wished my life was as simple as hers; nothing could be ever too hard to deal with because..crying solves almost everything. Haha!

the 25th that starts afresh

2011-07-26T03:25:00.001+08:00

Sometimes you don't need a new year to make resolutions, there's always a reason for us to constantly change for the better, especially for the loved ones you truly care about.

I made one today. :))

#3

2011-07-21T05:31:00.001+08:00

Boys who amazed himself by playing two players of Zynga Poker (mine and his), calling out "cheonnggg ahhhhh..!!" whenever he goes all in- totally loveable. :P

pink velour

2011-07-18T21:58:00.003+08:00

Who's got the most cutesy iPad?

ME!

Because I have kewl bro n' the girlfie to buy me pressie from HK. Ngengengengee.
Dorr jeh dorr jeh!
♥

Bus ride

2011-07-16T18:21:00.002+08:00

Everything done with my.. *toned down* jailbroken iPad. Sshhhh. Yes, thanks for the compliment. ;)

Food for heart

2011-07-15T02:39:00.003+08:00

Had a car to myself, drove around without having any destination in mind. Spent hours wandering around, from boutiques, to nail parlor, doing things I have always loved, and I thought, 'Hey this can't be too hard, I can live with this, yea like this.' Continued hovering around in this small city we grown up in, and I couldn't help but to wonder what if we have never crossed paths of each other's life, what if we met somewhere, on a street, in a coffee shop, yet we have never known each other? I would probably not crave for 'mangzhangkuey' as much, I probably wouldn't remember that I shouldn't leave the tea spoon in my coffee cup, I would never look at the houses, the dream houses the same again because we had never driven everywhere just to suss out for those in beautiful, intricate designs, and the eateries, the park, our park, would just remain as they are; bland, void of memories. But you weren't there, and I started doubting if you were made out of thin air, if we have never met 7 years ago, if you have never came back for me, if I embarked on this phenomenal journey I created myself a little less than 5 months ago that doesn't actually exist- until the radio played 'You're Still the One', the thoughts slowly dissipated as I sang aloud to myself. I wished you heard me.

The clock says you have left for 33 hours, but he must be lying. :(

Cause' the heart doesn't say so.
I miss you, bii. ♥

Joke is on us.

2011-07-14T04:39:00.000+08:00

The Facebook newsfeed has lately transformed into a platform where people express their rage against the government through sharing of videos and media reports. It's as if no one is allowed to be unaware of what is happening right now unless you're too lazy to read or to simply keep your mind sane. I may have not read in depth on everything to have a say, but I personally find it quite amusing that everyone is making a big fuss out of it. It's a little less than a week since the rally, and the polemics only get more intense everyday with all the desperate attempts, i.e the lies and big fat lies from the leaders to deny what they had/had not done. We are almost obliged to frame out our dissatisfaction against the authorities now because these people, who are supposed to speak for us, have breached the very fundamental unit between any relationship- trust. That is if we look at Mr Kentucky, or the infamous adult video actor, or the poor man who believes that the cloud of tear gas targeted at the hospital could be blown by wind (God I feel insulted just by restating it) that's representing the wholeeee government. Actually if we give it a room for thought, they are but humans. When a little boy accidentally breaks the vase, it's natural for him to come up with excuse like ooooh the wind blown (pun intended) and the vase fell. Cliché much but that's human nature. Just that it's the people representing the nation that we are talking about, hence they are expected to be.. wiser than normal humans and at the very least to NOT twist the apparent in favor of their own benefits. But if you search for the definition of politic, it means "shrewd or prudent in practical matters, or simply tactful in one's interest". But those people are doing the stupid way, and at its stupidest that is. And after watching the video on The Truth that Cannot be Covered, I felt disheartened, only towards the unfortunate event of the poor man who didn't receive the medical attention he deserved to, and worse, in handcuffs that couldn't be released wtf. People question about how ruthless the police were in handling the riot. But why am I not surprised? Seriously people, have we not known them yet? How much should we really rely on them when before we learnt anything about the responsibilities they SHOULD have, the first thing that comes to our mind is nothing but the nonchalant attitude and corruption, almost effortless because that is what already instilled in my subconscious mind like that. Pffft. Sure they were "brave" and had shouted louder than ever, I mean how often they encounter occasion like that? They must have felt totally.. gempak (a word picked up from the boyfie) and couldn't waste any chance to legally imperil the innocent citizens. You think they'd realllllly understood the whole purpose of this rally? And their responsibilities? Give them a break already, they are police, Malaysia police.

The world is watching, joke is on us.

it's the princess' birthday,

2011-07-08T02:10:00.001+08:00

And that's her pressie from me, but only one of her manyy other pressiesss.

I wish I had that for my 2 years old, or 22 years old. Maybe 222 years old then. :((

Gugu loves you! ♥

Shall blog more about it later. :)

tiamo` pivoine flora,

2011-07-07T01:11:00.007+08:00

*Wipe off the blanket dust on the laptop, cough cough*

So the iPad has come in handy to assuage my urge to blog every now and then, especially when the pictures taken with its camera are surprisingly satisfactory (after being edited using some awesome apps of course), at least for me. When half of the world are catching the trend of capturing carefully-defined photos using dslr, I appreciate my cameras as they are for now, free from complex dials, levers, apertures and ISO that probably washes over me like water. I'm dumb like that, or simply too lazy to learn :( BUT BUT.. I'm actually in the process of saving/researching for a better compact camera to replace my current t-77, and at the same time I want a diana F+! :P I love the way the world is precisely framed with each snap on the shutter, and I love lomography that brings about unpredictable, dreamy-toned images, which often tells more than a story instead of the correct representation of the reality. :) Haha, I'm such a paradox I know.

Oh, something to share. Today I got myself a pair of Tiamo, finally! Wheeeeeeeee.. :)))))))

I learnt about this brand when I discovered the manyyyy pairs of these superbly pwetty ballerina flats/pumps in the shoe closet, it appears that my sis-in-law is a huge fan of them. I may have fell for the shoe box itself, let alone the snuggly shoes that span across a variety of designs!

I was never a fan of wearing flats due to my pathetic physical attribute (short, not-so-slender legs, not tall enough, hmmm short). But then I became so used to wearing them to uni/shopping because most of my heels are.. well, quite humanly impossible to walk in for long. And I was always a minimalist when it comes to the design- plain, solid colour, that's it. BUT I think I've grown out of that stage and now a little more attracted to intricate designs, like those I saw in Tiamo that is. ♥

I got mine at 30% off, I ish happie gal! :)))))))

Oh oh, speaking of new shoes. :P The other day I stole this from Vincci+ at only 50bucks! Loveeeeeee the nude colour, good quality, and deffo the redsole! Hehe. One day when I'm rich enough I'll own some Christian Louboutin pumps just for its signature red sole. :P

I've also splurged on something else today. Sighhhhhhhh, can't decide if I love/hate the megaga sales seriously.

Couldn't have fallen for the scent an instant sooner, this is one of those things that I know I haddddd to get the moment we met, like love at first sight! =X

I may be drawn to the new scent that put me in a mood of floral dates with summer, but I think I still love the fruity opulence of Red Delicious, and the aquatic Ralph Lauren Blue that I've been wearing since college time, the one that still reminds him (..hopefully) that he's in love. :P

Okay that's all for now. Toodles!

Hmmm, think I still prefer blogging using the lappie. =/

Not the sweetest thing,

2011-07-02T00:30:00.001+08:00

.. but I just can't have enough of it. ♥ strawberries!

I should have a whole loads of stuff to write about but all I want to say now is :((((((((((((((((((((((

drive-thru

2011-06-30T01:05:00.003+08:00

Life has been hustling by absurdly fast. If things go as planned I'm gonna be start working in a month's time, although I've yet to know where exactly will I be working at. Damnnnn the uncertainty that entails all the uneasiness/anxiety/excitement lurking within every now and then, it's never a good feeling not knowing what lies ahead especially something this BIGGGG that may potentially determine the nature of my life for the next few years. Juggling between factors like a hospital where I can really gain good learning experiences, parents =O , living expenses $_$, boyfie :(, ~~availability of shopping malls~~, I'm not too sure myself where should I go. Sighhhhh. Just leave it to God, aye?:)

Oh, the other day I finally stepped foot on the casino for the first time following them parents, and let's just say lady luck was kind enough to be there in my welcoming party. :)) *ka-ching!!* Only the sad thing was we didn't win enough for the megaga sale going on. :P

Oh oh, I'm finally 22 too! :))) Thanks for all the birthday wishes, special thanks to the buncha cute hunks who celebrated for me, and heartfelt thanks to the boyfie for the lovely dinner. Mmmuahh!

Random shots-

heavily-lined eyes, dolled up for cussie's wedd dinner,

when I go a little too bow-addictive,

my current affair with nude colour shoes, ♥

candle lights, birthday dinner prepared by the boyfie,

a bus-ride home with sinful snack and iPad as companion, blessed.

Laters!

deadened sense.

2011-06-22T11:31:00.001+08:00

It pecks off a little bit each time
of what it takes to pave the road ahead.
If you can live with what I'm living in,
I'll quit figuring out why even if I don't get it.

I get enervated each time.

#2

2011-06-18T03:51:00.001+08:00

Boys who never cease to be amazed by the light saber sound effect emitted from the iPhone whenever he slides to unlock/press the sleep-wake button - totally adorable. :P

To girls,

2011-06-14T12:53:00.001+08:00

That's the way to live. ;)

Left 4 dead 2

2011-06-13T02:56:00.001+08:00

If I were a boy, I'd probably have popped more zombies in the head bang bang bang easily, and simply.. stayed alive longer. -.- Just why does it not come in the XX genotype?

I had funnnn nonetheless! Reminds me of college time - those crazeh late nights spent at FTZ (cyber cafe) with them buncha friends playing just about any.. bang bang bang game that I totally sucked at. Haha. I was once young.

Sigh. I miss my college fwens. :(

#1

2011-06-12T00:50:00.001+08:00

the Gashed potatoes

Boys who know his ways in making wonders on the plate - totally cute. ;)

Oh wait,

2011-06-11T05:27:00.003+08:00

I'm where I want to be. Why did I choose to leave again?

you got my sunshine.

2011-06-05T00:05:00.007+08:00

You've had it counted from the first day, I thought that was sweet, but silly of you. And that was 7 years ago, when days were young and relationship equated a nebulous idea. Little did we know we'd be given a chance again. This time I've remembered to mark on the calendar, to celebrate this day with you baby, our 100 days of the walk on this road together, and more to come.

I love your mistakes, your carelessness, your everything that makes you, you.

Fiddling the new toy!

2011-06-03T20:27:00.003+08:00

Yayyyyyy! Finally received the baby after almost a month of waiting. The thing about buying things online- it makes you totally psyched about it the first few days (I swear I dreamt about it every other night), then all the stupid delays in shipment and whatnots eventually makes you a very angry person, and kills off the excitement altogether when you finally receive your buy. Pfft. To cut the story short, DHL sucks, big time, and I got 100bucks rebate by Apple. Heheheh.

I've been since then getting my hands all over the baby and I feel.. damn it's so naked inside out. Lol. I reaaallllllllly love the red leather smart cover but.. a 130bucks more than the normal polyurethane one? (ohno) and DHL, again?! (ohnono) Bah, it's alright. Got it all covered up still, I mean where else could be possibly safer than in my arms almost all the time? Lucky you, iPad. =P

♥

Pssst, crack it up you shrewd jailbreakers. I can't wait already. =P

Make everyday counts.

2011-06-01T13:05:00.009+08:00

I want to wake up every morning, look at the girl I see in the mirror and say,

"Hey, for whatever that happens, thank God for today!" :)

Do we not often spend more time grieving over things that don't go our ways, than be appreciative of what we already have? We tend to be veiled by the perpetual effect of any "bad" stuff and overlook the ones that make us smile.

Er, never mind the solemn look that totally contravenes the above. Felt oh-so-kewl at that moment, at that angle, okay? Okay. *defensive* =P

Mindstuck for the moment. Till then!

p/s: Because today I woke up from dreams, and you were just right beside. =3

i'm an angryy graduate!

2011-05-29T15:30:00.003+08:00

Heartfelt thanks to the ever awesomest Lam clan, the boyfie, the boyfie's boyfie, and Yue babe. I'm so ♥-ed!More of that later.

Because I'm so excited of the convocation tomorrow I can't sleep

2011-05-28T02:36:00.001+08:00

Ohnoooo.

In your room.

2011-05-22T10:27:00.001+08:00

Morning, a sleek slide on the phone screen to relinquish the alarm from its obligation to wake him up for class- I woke up instead. It appeared to me that I've been inflicting the toil of every-10-mins-snooze to the poor alarm for the past 90 minutes, oh brutal. The ray of sunlight filtered through the curtain that drapes carelessly over the brink of windows leaves the room a light tint of romantic pink, and it stirred up the heart that admires pretty things innate in most girls just like that. I can't help but to continue documenting the surroundings with the pair of bleary eyes- the whimsical reason that I like being without glasses/lenses to retain the shortsightedness- the glossy magazine that lies exactly where I left it minutes before I fell asleep, flipped on a page that drawn me to the lusty lips of the beautiful model, my hanging towel that flips and swirls gracefully through the wind, as if the droning fan is choreographing the dance for it, the snugly blanket that still smells of detergent, everything scattered around in this little room that seems to fill up a larger space than usual, and I actually love how the lack of room space makes it more cozy than ever. Some people say they never sleep because they're afraid of missing out something beautiful, but I clocked just enough hours to dream a little dream, woke up with a clearer mind and still find things as beautiful. I'm loving a Sunday morning like this.

our toes met.

2011-04-29T03:50:00.001+08:00

it's ironic how sometimes the brimming mind can seem to be exploding at any mundane moment like this - me in PJs, sitting in front of the laptop on this chair I can't quite decide if I like it, [How I Met Your Mother] for hours, by the balcony looking out at a beautiful scenery I've started to get familiar with, of the city I'm leaving soon, at half-three in the morning, loving every bit of the rhythms the rain plays for me. And every now and then there are passing moments when your foot brushes mine, when you didn't catch me looking through just to find your eyes, or when I'm simply.. compelled to throw myself in your arms whenever senses rush back like a part of me has been displaced the brief moments ago since we last hugged and kissed - suddenly I feel whole again, maybe it has always been this way that I want it to be, released from all those oppressive memories of the past that hasn't been too friendly. I've learnt, that this is all I can catch within the apparent periphery from the balcony at the 15th floor, I'll never know where the elusive highways the streak of little cars beneath my feet are slithering along will lead to, I'll never know what's coming my way, our ways. But here, the soft breezes just outside the window, reminds me that I'm with you now, and it's all that matters.

what makes you feel like killing yourself..

2011-04-24T04:21:00.001+08:00

... is when the blare of the opposing voices within you screws up your mind right to this very minute - 4.20am as we speak - and hasn't shown a sign of toning down, you feel like hammering yourself right to the wall to shut the bitches up. Do me a favour?

the way you are.

2011-04-23T01:03:00.001+08:00

Added in my list of wedding songs. =3

Gaaaahhhhh

2011-03-27T21:09:00.001+08:00

&!@$#=*%!?!

I need a getaway.

nostalgia, in the making

2011-03-23T12:38:00.000+08:00

Some days later I'll be missing this - the dreary cold weather in the library, that brings about people who makes a fool of themselves wearing the symbolic white coats to replace cardigans or the likes, the ever-so-comfy couch that makes reading papers much pleasant, the cafe that never fails to satiate the gluttonous me, the small talks over the other tables in pompous English/jargons, and simply the no-better-place for sussing out hot chics/hunks. How have these made bidding uni-life goodbye difficult? :(

take a leap of faith.

2011-03-08T00:16:00.002+08:00

I insist that I bring a tinge of incomparability to my lomography (albeit the mawkish photo description) than all the rest of you who are trying too hard. =P I have always wanted to snap more photos and blog just about anything before my thoughts go accumulating, soon be buried by a whole lotsa nonsense. This is also the time when you know age is catching up as I have come to enjoy spending time in the real world than in the worldwideweb, just like how all adults do. Oh, speaking of adulthood! I am almost stepping into the throes of FINALS now, which culminates the 4 years-university life before I'm finally declared a degree holder. :) Such mixed feelings. I would like to think that I'm in a "quarter-life crisis" now. As much as I know just how the coming days - working in a hospital from 8 to 5 - are going to be, I feel.. uncertain. It's a strange feeling inside that resembles the whimsical twist in the stomach the whole night before the first day of school. Yet at the same time there is nothing too erratic/interesting to look forward to, at least for the next 4 years that is. See there are times when you think you can make a plan out of life - a Gucci with the first pay, a new ride after a year, a new boyfriend in the mid 20's, turns husband after 3 years of relationship, a new house then, and the first child just before it hits the big three zero. Just recently, I caught myself sinking into something I least expected to surface at this point of my life. The past experiences and the what-ifs always stand in the way when it comes to decision making and often than not, cause the opportunities to slip away. That's when I was entangled and held back, trying to live up to my own set of so-called principles. But when I realized it's something that came this far, so fragile that we almost missed each other, so strong that it endured a 7-years this late, it is actually quite everything.

This is definitely not how I have envisioning it to be, but once and for all I would just like to steer clear of the veils and to tell the world that, I'm in love.

Simply because he swept me off my feet just like that. ;)

it must be love.

2011-03-02T01:36:00.001+08:00

I fall. :)

prettiest friend.

2011-02-17T03:05:00.003+08:00

Lemme share an uber sweet song here, specially dedicated to you to dedicate it back to me. Waddd? =P
*Please scroll down to mute my jukebox first!*

spread some love.

2011-02-14T00:29:00.004+08:00

A love no less than amazing, is the very least that one deserves

to keep us afloat, to keep us real.

Happie Rabbit Year!

2011-02-02T18:30:00.003+08:00

Coming back from a long, ~~horrendous~~ constructive hospital attachment makes every bit of this CNY much precious and meaningful altogether! :) Wishing everyone a prosperous RABBIT new year ahead! HUAT AR!

bits and pieces.

2011-01-25T22:19:00.003+08:00

p/s: i want a real Diana F+ please. :(

So close.

2011-01-15T20:27:00.004+08:00

This is one of those beautiful songs that I fell for instantly the first time I listened to it (from the movie Enchanted) And it's been added to the songs list to be played in my wedding! =3 Hmm, what's with the look? One is allowed to dream of the kind of dream wedding anyone could ever dream of even if there is no one to walk down the aisle with, just yet, okayyy? *defensive*

Dedicated to all lovebirds in the world, show love and be loved. :D

hold on tight; hang in there.

2011-01-02T23:40:00.007+08:00

Idea gotten from others, drawn my version cos this is exactly how I'm feeling right now.

Two Ou Daa-Ber One!

2011-01-02T04:29:00.005+08:00

And they always say,

a new year for a new beginning.

But it's merely a change of numbers on the calender,

what is important is to reflect on the past;

for the mistakes we have done,

for the things we have not done,

for the people we have yet to forgive, and

for the people we have yet to show enough love and appreciation.

A beginning starts anew only when we truly learn, plan, and act to emerge as a better person, yes? :)

My new year started off well, and yours?=3

seconds to falling dead asleep.

2010-12-01T20:06:00.003+08:00

Amazing, isn't it? That I have time to write some nonsense here after a long day at the hospital. I'm simply waiting for my turn to shower, uh-huh, that's the case here when 6 persons share a bathroom. And for someone like me who takes her own sweet time showering and doing laundry, I'm usually the last. :D Oh, If I haven't made it loud and clear enough already, I'm at the JayBee doing my last semester attachment at Hosp. Sultanah Aminah! Staying along with 8 other coursemates in a condo 5 minutes away from the hosp, I'm glad to have them going through this crucial 9 weeks attachment together. =3 Today's the 3rd day, and half of us are either falling sick, or are critically ill. Hahah! 8 to 5 on the clock has never taken this long it seems. But hey, I'm still standing tall and staying strong! xD My first week placement is at DI/TDM. While the rest have been busy clerking cases in ward for the past two days, I was sitting in the DI department flipping through the thick reference book, dozing off most of the time. Blehhh. It's TDM today!!!! and I went to the ward, like finally! ICU - looking at the patients attached to tubes and machines struggling for every breath to live makes my heart wrenched. Something I never expect to be lurking within me even after the countless times of going to the ward. I hope I'll learn how to be less emotionally drained after this 3 months. :( So yeah, clerked my first case, had my equal share of... [=__=""] trying to decipher all the mysterious codes the doctors had to say in patient's case notes, and experienced muscle-ache like all my other friends have! :D Why do I sound so excited hmm? HA HA HA =.= Then then, since the hospital's TDM service is solely pharmacy-based, I got to observe how analysis of blood sample was done! So I was all hyped up seeing the pipettes, blood collection tubes, centrifuge, machines and even the biohazard bags that all reminded me of Sem7 research again! AHHH, that seems so long ago. I actually kinda miss that! =X I was lucky enough to be able to watch and learn when the staff demonstrated on the procedures to the prps. Too bad they were so busy I had to swallow back all the hundreds of questions popped up in my head. I managed to ask one though, after seeing them diluting the blood sample with buffer as the amount was too little to obtain enough plasma for analysis. I asked, "Encik, kenapa tak ambil banyak sikit blood sample ni?" He told me, " Tu blood baby tu! Baby kecik! Ada banyak test lagi sebelum ni. Tak boleh ambil banyak blood la ni" Sigh. Poor little thing. To think how easy I harvested at least 10X of the amount of blood from the rats during research! xD Thus an abrupt ending to this post because I'm dying. So bye and pray for me thankie! :) Wish the b107-ians all the best!

under the rainbow.

2010-11-21T02:40:00.004+08:00

" .... What we can't do is live our lives afraid of the next good-bye, because chances are they are not going to stop. The trick is to recognize when a good-bye can be a good thing - when it's a chance to start again."

Did I say that out loud?

2010-11-18T03:39:00.003+08:00

*..came across the idea somewhere, and thought it's cute! .. So I drawn my version heeee*

Foolish games

2010-11-15T05:04:00.005+08:00

You took your coat off and stood in the rain,

You're always crazy like that.
And I watched from my window,
Always felt I was outside looking in on you.
You're always the mysterious one with
Dark eyes and careless hair,
You were fashionably sensitive
But too cool to care.
You stood in my doorway, with nothing to say
Besides some comment on the weather.

Well in case you failed to notice,
In case you failed to see,
This is my heart bleeding before you,
This is me down on my knees, and...

These foolish games are tearing me apart,
And your thoughtless words are breaking my heart.
You're breaking my heart.

You're always brilliant in the morning,
Smoking your cigarettes and talking over coffee.
Your philosophies on art, Baroque moved you.
You loved Mozart and you'd speak of your loved ones
As I clumsily strummed my guitar.

You'd teach me of honest things,
Things that were daring, things that were clean.
Things that knew what an honest dollar did mean.
I hid my soiled hands behind my back.
Somewhere along the line, I must've got
Off track with you.

Well, excuse me, guess I've mistaken you for somebody else,
Somebody who gave a damn,
Somebody more like myself.

These foolish games are tearing me apart,
And your thoughtless words are breaking my heart.
You're breaking my heart.

You took your coat off,
Stood in the rain,
You're always crazy like that.

*click to listen as I can't embed the video =(*

Too beautiful a song not to fall for, tears simply welled up just by listening to it even without a reason. =..]

the end is near..

2010-11-07T03:23:00.004+08:00

..Really? :(

Zara warehouse sale

2010-11-06T00:58:00.002+08:00

I've never really been to a warehouse sale before because I don't like the shoving people which, to me razes off the slow, pleasant process of SHOPPING altogether. I prefer taking my own sweet time choosing between pwetty stuff. =3

I'd always think that,

1. By the time I go all the nice things would have been snatched away.

2. Even if there are nice things there won't be suitable size for me.

BUT.

Read about zara warehouse sale today. After some googling and google-mapping I just decided to hop into my wira and off I went! *smirk* Woman, tsktsk.

*dig, keep digging*

The sale is at Atria shopping centre in PJ, like yeah, bet cha never heard of it before either. Thank god I didn't get lost somewhere, talk about someone like me with terrible sense of direction. Maybe... I was meant to be there! HAHAHAHA.

Like pasar malam. *roll eyes*

Surprisingly, it wasn't as crowded as I expected! Price ranges from 9.90 for basic tops to 49.90 for a pair of skinny jeans *faint* Pretty good steal for fine clothings like that, really!

I've seen some familiar summer apparels (a denim top I bought few months back for 1++ is selling at 39.90 now le sigh) and knitted wear as well! It's all about rummaging through the piles and piles of clothes and eventually you should find something that suits you. *glee* Now I know the fun of it!

After 2 hours of hard work.. xD

At first I was more like probing for anything, ANYTHING at all of my size because they're harder to find. Without realizing I've had a big pile in my hand! Then rationalization kicked in and I had to tell myself repeatedly: Choose only what you need, FION. Be practical! *slap self*

I had a hard time reconciling the opposing voices in me like until I finally decided on a few. SEEEE, Imma smart shopper and I don't buy impulsively ok! *bangga*

Those are my steal! The nautical-inspired top seen everywhere during spring/summer season is 29.90! *faint* AND the pink velour short pants is 19.90! Very comfy and juicy-couture-like. *faint again*

I ish happie girl. Heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

OH! The sale is until the 7th I think. You may wanna try your luck too! =3

..Because I haven't been taking any vain pic for awhile. =P

Gonna work hard for the thesis now!!!!!!!!!!!!

Toodles!

these boots are made for walking

2010-10-31T23:08:00.004+08:00

Here, cheerleading pictures! *feigning a cheerleader's bright smile* :D

*All pictures are credits to friends, I didn't manage to take any!*

my YY ♥

The ever-round face after having my hair neatly tied up. Dislike!

Cute flashcards!

♥ The 'Lembu-s' to bits

Draco!

Phoenix!

Hydra!

Pegasus!

GRIFFIN!!! -The supa-awesome champion team!!!

...and my TAURUS! RAWRRRRR!

*toe-touch*

*split!* :D

♥ B107!

My sexy girls

Uhm... A typical cheerleader smile. LOL!

Single ladies :(

Post-competition-McD-high!

I believe I laughed too hard that night. xD
...
Lastly,

I'm a proud Taurus-ian! :D

Sidenote: Ah yes, recently splurged on a pair of oxford booties from Zara. Totally love!! =X I wish I could own a closet full of the fall/winter clothing. But the last thing I want is to look like a total freak layered with sweater/draped cardigans/knit scarf/black hosiery/thigh-high boots at a 38degree celsius of weather outside. :(
In few hours time I'll be going for a mini getaway with the batchmates to Gua Tempurung+Penang! *Psyched*
Till then!:D

我可以做得再好一些些

2010-10-25T00:02:00.003+08:00

有时候很讨厌那个不够积极，不尽全力，容易安于现状的自己。

总觉得，天不会塌下来就好了。

那颗进取心跑去哪儿了呀？

2010-10-19T21:16:00.002+08:00

elephant legs

2010-10-14T20:43:00.002+08:00

.. I feel like I'm having a pair of them now. Nawwh, I don't mean the real, real elephant legs from the disease 'elephantiasis', merely a lousy analogy alright. Why? My muscles are the toughness now, after weeks of stretching and streeeetching for the cheerleading competition. Almost as tough as when I did ballet back then, except I don't have the nice curvaceous line down ankle anymore. All I have now are FAT_CHUNKY_LEGS. T-T

Competition's over! And I believe everyone is still suffering some kinda post-cheer-syndrome without any hardcore training everyday *huhuaakhuhak* anymore. The lurking dull body-ache that is! Every now and then it reminds me of how much I miss the practice with the crazy lembuss! :D

If only I was a 1st-year freshie with more chances coming... :(

Feeling old. *cough* One very good example is how I almost pengsan today in uni (exaggeration lol) for sleeping only 2hours yesterday to catch up with my moldy research work *imagine green algae blanketing the lappie and notebook* Wait, cos I used to be able to do that few days in a roll during exam period and still managed to stand tall and stay strong! Now I can't even sit on a chair for too long because my muscles and bones would start yelping for help. :( Eh, I'm 21 years old, really? *roll eyes*

Oh, I'll be going to Hosp Sultanah Aminah at JB for sem8 posting! Please be naiss to me for the 9weeks ahhh. *crossing fingers and toes*

Spot me. xD

Not coherent anymore, zzzzz! Shall upload more cheer pics next entry! Toodles!

toppled.

2010-10-08T04:21:00.000+08:00

The world seems to be hustling by fast, with or without me. Because you came by again, and my world then gyrates about an axis made of only you. I'm dizzy.

Hello, Oct-y!

2010-10-02T01:02:00.002+08:00

Today. Last sacrifice. No more rats. AWESOME POSSUM. WheeEEEE! Nightmare's just about to start. Data-analysis + thesis-writing = Oh. to the. Emm. Gee. New month to look forward to! The brother and sisinlaw are back from the Europe. Present = ♥ Damier Azur Eva - So classy and gorgeous I'm gonna faint. Cheerleading Practice E-V-E-R-Y-D-A-Y! Sweaty+Stinky= the new Sexayy. LoL. Love the cheer group to bits. Nevermind about winning or not! :D

More laters. =3 Happie weekend peepou!

sorleng's bdae ♥

2010-09-26T17:14:00.007+08:00

*Super long overdue*

BUT.. it's about savoring the ~~hungry~~ pretty moments again with the piqcheuers, no? =3

And lastly, a picture I super ♥

Love you! *smooches*

hollow heart.

2010-09-25T16:56:00.006+08:00

If there's one very thing that I am lacking of now, it's the passion towards things in life. It is during times like this when I simply feel like breaking loose from the reality and continue hovering around the comfort and freedom I found in you, if only time has been a better friend.

*edited after 1+ hour*

O.o at myself cos I don't remember why I felt that way to have written those words earlier. LoL! I think erratic female hormones *ahem* does that to you sometimes and make you look like you have split personality or the likes. Heheh. Them parents are here! Weeeeeeeeeeeee..

in my dreams these days..

2010-09-20T02:51:00.005+08:00

p/s: Loving the new song I changed for the blog. Suits my mood better now. =3

The bro's b'day

2010-09-13T21:58:00.005+08:00

*Long overdue*
The 2nd bro's birthday dinner! I'm lazy like that so I made collage of pictures instead. =3
The eldest bro and I have a thing for sashimi and Xenri serves fine japanese cuisine at affordable price! I personally love the deco and the overall ambiance of the place. Go try! Bring me along! :P

A whole table-load of food. =_=

Lengjai bro, happy with his pressies and b'daymooncake.

Till then! :)